Dry on the inside

Lazy is the perfect word to describe to how i'm feeling right now. I had 4 slices of pizza for lunch,felt so good. My body clock's still not right but my eyes aren't failing me yet so it's okay. Recently, i've been so obsessed with pictures like these, clothes, shoes and designs.

My days at home are spent obsessing.
Neway my uncle passed away a couple of days ago and he's in the papers today. I don't know him that well but my dad says my granduncle's really upset. rest in peace uncle Raphael. May your soul rest peacefully in the hands of god.
I don't have much to update so i'll stop here.
Don't let the rain put you down like, what it has done to me.

detailed

I got up early this morning, squeezed my eyes shut and open again to get a clearer view of my ceiling. I laid in bed for about 15 minutes before I sat up to take a look at my dog. She was lying in between my calves soundly asleep. Everywhere was quiet, so still that all you could hear was the flowing water from the swimming pool. Looking up, the clouds spread across the bright blue painted sky. That was when I really realised that peace was indeed good. Some people are afraid of being alone, but alone time is so peaceful. So rolling around, I finally laid on my back, stretching my arms and fingers to grab new moon which was above me. I flipped open to where my IELTS identity card was which I use as my bookmark, and giggled to myself. The photo of me looked bloated as if I had cheezels implanted in my cheeks. Page 462, 21. Verdict was where I started. I rolled about while reading till I finally laid face down on top of a huge green pillow with a huge yellow swirl that looked like a whirlpool. I couldn't help but smile again. It reminded me well of someone. placing my book shut next to me giving my eyes some rest before I got up, scrunched my hair into a high bun and slipped my pink hairband on before washing up.
That is as detailed as I shall go.
It all went by so fast.
All was done in an hour.
Imagine describing your entire day in precise detail. That's tough. I am feeling better, less upset and pretty much back to normal. picking up classes on the side when I have the time is what's decided.
I'm tired, my nights have not been excellent with sleep sigh.

Argh

Today, I am craving for pretzels.
Life is so full of itself it makes us regret the decisions we've made. I've regretted decisions made in the past and now, i'm regretting the present.
I am so full of regret I feel like suffocating myself.
I wish...I had taken fine arts. To hell with what i always say to buffer myself.
Why oh why.
Last night was terrible. My head was spinning and my body felt like it was on fire.
I want new books.
I'm suppose to read 4 books this month and i'm not even done with new moon because I wanna read eclipse continuously.
I want eclipse.

Ps tutorial

I'm just gonna post this to help somebody beftore I install updates on my lappy for the next hour or so.
Okay, i'm using ps7 so I don't know if its the same with the other versions.
To load a texture, click on Filter>Texture
and another popup box will appear. You'll see several options. eg, craquelure, grain, mosiac tiles etc.

Click on texturizer.
Then you'll see another tiny pop up window which will look like this.

Click on the drop down menu which says canvas> load texture.
Then load your textures!

Hope that helped! =)

diminishing fuse

This post is going to have a whole lot of "I's".
Out of immaturity, anger and hate only will you resort to such things.
I must say, you got me mad for a bit but if there was a point that you had meant to put across, it probably would've gotten here by now. Hey, i'm still waiting.
I just wanna say to whom this may especially concern. You know it well. better in fact. If childish games make your day, by all means, do sing a longs and fun dances. I hate to see you wither. And I hold no grudge against you or whoever you've told to hate me further. Never did I once rake up the issue repeatedly talking about the closest to you might turn their heads and snap right at you. I could jolly believe that you didn't do it and honestly, i would. I've been graceful about this and you should maybe grow up just a little to do the same. If your hate for me disgusts you, tell me. I'm all ears. I could stoop to your level but I believe that life doesn't continue if you keep circling the same track. I've been nice on accounts where you've spoken to me letting everything drift because we're getting older. Maybe you were mad that I didn't believe you at first or maybe because I yelled at you. An explaination should help clear the stale air then.
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I believe that when something is about you, you deserve all the rights to know. And if a number of people who aren't exactly close to each other anymore or not at all say the same things about you, how could possibly be lying?
It's majority against minority.
About me yelling, i'm pretty sure anyone would after a point of time if the other person wasn't cooperating by giving flat tones and reluctant answers. Or even signs of agitation.

You may feel that you have not done anything wrong, questioning and prolly cursing at me when you read this but this post was written for you to know WHY I couldn't believe you. Oh one more thing, if you're holding a grudge against me for what I did, I just have to say get over it. I got over the fact that I too thought you were my close friend and even if i did believe you, isn't the aftermath enough proof to tell me that your grudge now is as strong as ever?
You always had grudges against me, even before you met me. So reallocate your thoughts and maybe, just maybe, grow up and get over this stupid feud.

Yeap that's about it.
I wanna switch urls hahahahah.
WEN IS SO GR8.

t-hee

Techinically its past twelve so, thank you ol for the 200 over hits yesterday! =)
Checking to see how my Valentine's day went? It was great! Though a little short but it couldn't have been any better than it was. Got an early start, Sean picked me up and we were off to meet Wens and Jia. Sean got me 3 roses and a sunflower as requested =) I insisted on no godivas cause flowers were more than enough to top it all. Had a little to eat and went ice skating as promised.We didn't have time to catch bride wars so we settled to skate. I had so much fun goofing with Jia it was just hilarious. Ahh i love her so too friggin' much. She's just so amazing and i'm pretty darn sure Wens knows that too heh. I don't have pictures of us skating. had to leave my bag in the car because it was really incovenient already having my cell in my pocket. The day ended as that. That was an extremely short elaboration of my Valentines. Hope yours was memorable too =)
&&&& today we caught bride wars! Somehow we ended up in kallang again. The movie was good. Jia and I caught a couple of glimpses of one another during the movie and wondered if all that drama was ever going to happen to us. Besides, we both have back up buddies if we're not married by 30 haha. Went to church and sent Jia home. Went back round 9ish after dinner to swim. I was practically mesmerized by poochie the whole time I was there.
Blogger's being difficult now. will upload photos soon then!
i'm planning on changing urls AGAIN. hahah fickle.

It's the am now, gudnight.

So golden i'm blinded by the light

Allllllrighhhhhhhht!
Free of exams, stress, andddd any sort of workload till...next week.
I have found peace within and around me haha. It's 2ish am and its already Valentine's day. I'm sure all you boys have bought flowers and girls simply eager to recieve them. Dinner reservations made, proposing on a cruise all planned, moon tanning & booking a cabin on the flyer 3 months before just for this special date is definitely gonna pay off. So good luck! Those of you who did any of the 4 things i've mentioned, your Valentine's gonna love you FOR it. Those who booked a cabin on the flyer 3 months ago, boy were you impatient or what lol.
Hi hi.
Time for a longer update. Had a little outing with my classmates after yesterday's paper. I felt so anal knowing I stayed up all night studying the entire course book only to find out 20 mintues before the exam that what I studied was hell irelevant. Infact all I had to do was actually study the past examination papers which I did and the outcome of the test paper was extremely alike. Can you believe it! My lecturer didn't even mention anything about that during his final tutorial jeez.
Hahah so anyway, our initial plan after school was to karaoke. I had no idea why it had to be that but we didn't in the end because of the misleading prices. Instead, frumpy me and friend lazed around. I swear i'm so gloomy and easily enraged when i'm deprived from thy sleep. Overall, my day was great and i'm hoping tomorrow's gonna be a blast with Jia and Wens.
We're gg ice skating! hehe
Am feeling a little too lazy to update pictures now.

Just a note to my noobshit whose made me the happiest inside out,
You may disappoint me but through the shitholes we've been through, there's nobody else i would have gone through it, if it wasn't you.
Happy 5th Valentine's day baby for this is assurance that I still love you haha.

I would just like to say, those of you who don't have date date, don't be disheartened. Valentine's is for everybody to celebrate. To me it signifies that everything starts with friendship and how long you've come. Love can take in uncountable forms so don't stay home, slouch and hate the world just because you don't have that special some one who makes your heart flutter. GET UP, OUT, DRESSED AND START PARTYING.
Just take the day off, and enjoy yourself.

I'M M PROUD FOUR DIS TERNED OUT TWO BEE A LONG ANTRY. GUDNYT OLL.

hopeful

I have 1 more examination to go. Just 1 more. I pray god guides me through this one for the 10th, was officially the worst day of 09.

Shag

Good morning world. Today's my second last paper and it's exactly 5 08 am now. I spent an hour power napping and studied till now. Was in much deep thought, tossing andclutching my palms, wrapping my fingers around one other praying that today's paper will go awfully well. My friend's coming over to do some last minute revision while I figure out how to make coffee or maybe, get myself a cup. I've already picked out what i'm gonna wear to avoid panic and distress. I'm watching MTV's breakfst club feeling extremely emotionless lacking any inch of urgency or nervousness for the exams. It makes me feel really irresponsible somehow.Besides all that, I look terrible, my. eye bags. eye. rings. eye sacks. whatevs you call them yawn. I must not feel sleepy today.



All I have to bare is till Thursday.
wish me luck all.
Love ya'll readers.

Oh so fine

Its 4ish now and I'm studying. There's nothing muh to study for tvrp really. Can't even read my own scribbling. I am in extreme desperate need of someone else's notes! According to everybody, tvrp and pr's gonna be a breeze which I clearly hope so. Still on New Moon, my fetish for Edward's starting to die out. Jacob's so much sweeter in a much more subtle, normal kind of way. Edward's mysterious, it just leaves us girls hearts on strings haha. Though i'm pretty sure i'll fall back on Edward once he returns at the end of New Moon.
Neway' i'm smiling cause...I got my very first SOTD! thank youuuuuuuuuu all very much =) I didn't expect it to be an SOTD. It looked flat to me.
Olryt 'm off to study! I'm praying that I remember at least 6-8 chapters tonight.
Morning by the way!

the shake

Denise is all smiles today.
Advertising paper was easy, and it's the end of the exam week for me. Exams resume on Tuesday though but I'm taking a break today. My day was vereh good. I laughed so hard till I couldn't feel my knees hehe. well it's been awhile since I last had pictures up so, here they are. A little to lazy to elaborate on the details. Gonna dive right in to bed. My eyelids are fluttering.






Gdnight!

I am dying and aging from stress.
The worst week ever. ever. ever.

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Hey, it's 3 25am. I'm feeling a whole lot better. Thank you everyone for caring =) you guys are so adorable haha. I'm listening to Leigh Nash. Been watching videos since 12ish to kill time and as an excuse to distract myself from studying. My notes are everywhere, my pieces of used tissue scrunched and laying around. I have the sudden urge to paint my nails.
About yesterday, about making the right desicion, i think i'll just let everything fall in to place and leave the alignment untouched. I guess I do act irrationally at times and when i'm down, a string of negative thoughts just go by making me feel low and hollow. A little time to sort things out or sleep just cures the whole hangover.
I dont know what else to say but this.
NINE INCH NAILS IS SO FRICKINNNNNN' GOOD LIVE.

Sigh

I feel so mixed up right now. Not good. Not good at all. I can't quite describe what i'm feeling, i just feel so fucking terrible. I like slow tempo songs to go with moods like these. I'm being asked to cheer up by the greatest friend on earth but it's so hard to. I don't know why i'm upset. Actually, i do. Im just reluctant to share and maybe pretending not to know either. Its hard to put on a smile when you're so down. Sigh, I shall try. Smiling might just cheer me up. Besides, what else can I do at 2 05 in the morning? I've been taking pictures of nothing, my ceiling in particular and thinking a whole lot while at it. Sometimes I wonder if change is for the better. I should stop giving chances, anticipating the outcomes and just cut to the chase. Whether I regret it or not, what's life without a couple of regrets?

I wanna break down walls and kill people. Right this instant.
I'm not upset. I'm just having one of those screw the world emotional moments.
If i regret, I need a back-up plan.
I have so much to say. Not here though.